I have had this tumblr for 11 or 12 years now? I like to go on my archives and just see the progression of my life, likes, etc. I find it a good representation of me.
Update on me and to archive for the future: last Tuesday was one of the hardest days of my life. I had to rush to the hospital and hear the heartbreaking news that I would not be a mom. I wasn’t far along so I knew this could happen but was still hard to hear. It will be ok though, I know my life is on track… I think?
I was such a bad child. Always doing wrong. Sneaking out of the house to drink and do drugs. Slowly opening the door as I tried to be as light as air, tip toeing out without a care. Deep down inside I was desperate for love. Anyone who even gave me the slightest attention, I’d be sprung. I fell hard into a pit of despair, looking for love that was never truly there.
